Being here. Just here.

le_ravissement_de_psyche-largeWhen I’m tired, when I feel drained I go outside and put my bare feet on the ground. I sit and look at the trees, watch them move in the wind, listen to the rustling of leaves. It feels like something inside of me is swaying with them, dancing beautifully.

The sounds of nature goes into me, heals me. I used to be so tired of the city. I’m glad we moved to the country.

During the meditation retreats that I used to attend, we would go for long walks and then sit a few moments in the forest. I wanted to stay there forever. I wanted to cry in relief at hearing only nature again. No cars, no shouting, no mechanical sounds of machines working.

I wanted to lie down and hug the earth, to feel it seep into my soul, nourish me, ground me. But I was too shy to do so, and remained sitting until we had to leave.

Now nature is at my doorstep, yet I don’t visit it often enough. There is so much to do and I measure a successful day in how many tasks I have completed.

And yet as I drank my tea this afternoon, my mind and nerves still buzzing with activity, I looked out the window at the trees and everything suddenly fell into perspective. It was as though I had forgotten there was a world beyond my own thoughts and worries.

Going deeper than my anxiety, the need to stay busy and get things accomplished, I was struck with the yearning to keep looking. What if I did that all day? What if all I did was to look at things, notice them fully, take in their beauty?

I knew I would feel guilty for not finishing my list of tasks, at the same time I was moved with the understanding of how valuable it was to take time to look at things, notice life.

And the more I look the more interesting things become. What if I could have the same enjoyment chopping vegetables for dinner? ┬áJust being there, having nothing on my mind, nor being interesting in anything but chopping vegetables. Being present in life, my life, the one that will pass me by if I’m not truly here.

There is a simple peace in being here, right now. What a relief it is to just be here.

18 thoughts on “Being here. Just here.

  1. Hi from Leonie’s Academy! :)

    Such a beautiful post!

    I can relate to that need for only nature, and no machines, cars, anything. We have this wonderful lake where I live, but unfortunately the E-road goes right by it, with trucks and everything. I really miss the peace and quiet.

  2. Hi Nienna :)

    I know what you mean. I had parks near me while living in the city, but there was always a lot of noise from a big road close by. At least it was nice to be near trees. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live in times when there was no cars, only horses.

  3. Hi, I can really relate to your post! I live in Switzerland and moved from the town of Zurich to the countryside. Like you, Being with a calm, open mind in the nature inspires me. It gives me a feeling of deep joy and peace. But unfortunately my to-do-lists often often win against my desire for these inspiring walks…

  4. Oh I know. It’s hard to allow ourselves to do things just because we enjoy them! Duty always call doesn’t it?

    Ah Switzerland, it must be beautiful there. I love mountains!

  5. Oh, such lovely , lovely words.
    I feel that too… I like to stand at the end of our garden, it backs on to fields, let my shoulders drop and just listen and notice…
    I am glad I am not alone xxx
    Nicola x

  6. Ah, you are so right about the dilemma . . . can we “accomplish things” and still stay aware and mindful about what is beautiful in our day? There must be a happy medium there, but I think most of us give too much credence to the “stay busy and accomplish a list of things” and it takes over too much of our lives until we feel lost. So here we all are, trying to reconnect with our blogs. :)

  7. Nature is so beautiful and always in balance. I love the walks with my dogs and it really can fill up our need.
    Often it is really good to have a dog for the reason that this walks become a thing on the to do list, sometimes to go outside needs lot to gather up, especially if the weather is muddy and rainy, but afterwards I’m always grateful that I went.
    Wish you a beautiful day
    Eos

  8. When I remember I try not to be attached to what I’m doing and just observe it with interest.

    Yes, I think blogging is a wonderful way to reconnect with what is important and beautiful to us.

  9. I’ve heard a lot of people say that, that having a dog helps them go outside a lot more, which makes sense of course. I like watching dogs, they’re just overflowing with happiness :D

  10. What a beautiful post. I can see you and I have been having similar experiences lately.
    It is so important to slow down, embrace the moment and breathe in the landscape and be present – as you say.

    Thank you for sharing. x

  11. Yes I’ve noticed there’s such a big difference between noticing life and rushing through it. Paying attention to things fills me up and makes me happy, makes me appreciate the tiniest things. Thanks for your comment!

  12. It’s amazing how being outside in nature for a while can help make you feel better when you’re down, stressed or tired, I want to try and spend more time outside, not thinking or worrying about anything.

  13. Yes, it has a way of healing us. It takes a bit of effort to get outside more, at least for me. My goal is to just be outside more, even if it’s just sitting somewhere.

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